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{May 25, 2013}   05.27.2013 – RAD

Today I completed the Color Me Rad 5k in Tampa, Florida.  Not only does this mark my first 5k of the year; it also marks my first 5k of the summer.  With all these races coming up, it;s time to get serious about my commitment to fitness.  When I say commitment, I don’t mean shoving myself in the living room to do a workout DVD that I dread doing.  I mean committing to do something active every day…something that I love.

Starting next week I will be able to go to yoga at least three times a week.  I skipped last week due to a cookout with some friends, so I will be able to use my last two trips this week on Tuesday and Wednesday.  Then, I am paying for the 30-Day pass on Friday once I get paid.  I think that yoga will give me a new appreciation for my body due to the fact that I am more able than I seem.  I need to get back to running hills, but my therapy appointments have taken my inertia away once I’m done talking about everything I have dealt with in a week.  I need to push myself to run right after my appointment and meet up with them once they start, or just find someplace that will give me energy during the hour of waiting for running club to start.

I just want to get back to the way I was.  I know I write a post complaining about the person I used to be at least once a week these days and the only one to blame for that is myself, I just wish I could find the strength to look past the trials and just say “fuck it” and reach my goals.  Part of me doesn’t even want to do it anymore.  I keep wanting to fast forward to the part of my life where it all makes sense, but I’m starting to doubt if that part ever comes.

Later Days,

-Jenni.

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{May 22, 2013}   05.22.2013 – Nine Days

Nine more days of school!  Yay!!

I am definitely ready to get my two-month break started.  It’s not REALLY a break because I will be volunteering the majority of the summer for a summer Preschool program, but it still will be a break from my actual job and an exploration into what I really want to do with my life.  I am still waiting on my Professional Education Test results, so I am just waiting for that.  I am less and less nervous about it, so I am okay with not knowing my results just yet.  I am hoping that the results come before my PreK test so that I can have a full answer by the time I take that test on whether I can start majorly searching for jobs or not.

In terms of workouts, I am learning to accept my ability to do any form of activity.  Yesterday, I had a run planned, but I ended up doing soccer drills ith Luke for the afternoon because I was on his side of town instead of mine.  I enjoyed myself, and I got in a decent workout.  Today I have soccer planned and my yoga class.  It’s hard to get me to not go to yoga.  I cannot wait until I can spring for the unlimited pass next month.

Hope you all are having a great week!  I’ll update more on food choices later.  It’s a learning process and I am definitely adding more fruits and veggies.  It’s just difficult to go about it without weighing myself every day and counting calories like it’s going out of style.

Later Days,

-Jenni.



As a start to my new healthy-living mantra, I am implementing a rule.  A rule which I have stolen from my friend Julie, who stole the rul from a movie (Parental Guidance…I think). 

For every downer, I own myself three uppers.  Three compliments about myself or things that I am thankful for in my life.

This means that every time I put myself down, I have to come up with three things that will lift me back up.  And after yesterday’s post, I owe myself quite a few uppers…specifically thirty.  I owe myself thirty “uppers”.  So, here we go…

1. I am smart.  I am currently teaching myself through study guides so that I can get my teaching certification.

2. I can cook a perfect pancake.  It has taken a lot of tries, but it’s perfection.

3. My hair color is awesome.  Just, awesome.

4. I am a great educator.  This is validated.  I get told at least weekly that I am wonderful with the kids that I work with.

5. I have the ability to run.  I may be slow and it may not be far, but I have the ability to run.

6. I am witty.

7. I have a family that does everything in its power to provide happiness for me.

8. I am able-bodied enough to do yoga, on a daily basis if I want, and I am more relaxed because of this.

9. I can grow my own herbs (hopefully!). 

10. I have friends that are supportive, even when they are not sure what’s going on with me.

11. I live less than three hours away from both Florida coasts… I’m surrounded by beach.

12. I get to go to SeaWorld for FREE on Friday.

13. One of my students told me I was skinny.  In a middle school environment, that means everything. 

14. I am trusted enough that people come to me for advice.

15. I understand nutrition enough that people come to me for advice.

16. I am making daily decisions that are creating a healthier life for me.

17. I can bake/cook healthy and not-so-healthy treats.

18. I have stuck to my 85% vegetarian goal for almost a month.

19.  I am feeling more and more committed to yoga every day.

20. I came to work today instead of faking sick and sleeping all day.

21. I overcame my emotions yesterday without the use of self-injury or horror movies.

22. I will complete the first concept of study for my PreK test today before the end of school.

23. My nephew can make me laugh, even on my worst days.

24. I got four races for the price of one this summer.  Through this, I can improve on my 5k time throughout the summer.

25. I found a mud race that I can do for free through volunteering.

26. I can sing…well.

27. The Fast ForWord lady was impressed with how involved I am in the program, and offered to be a reference when I start looking for a teaching job.

28. I have stuck to my goal of not chewing gum… this is a HUGE accomplishment, since I used to rely on gum to curb cravings.

29. I can read music, something I consider to be a lost art.

30. School is out in 23 Days, and I’m only working 16 of those days.

 

Later Days,

-Jenni.



Sometimes I get bored and plan out my entire workout schedule through the end of the year… and that happened this morning. 

Due to wedding dates, I have had to give up on a few races and change around a few plans.  It actually has not been as mentally difficult as I expected it to be and I am mostly glad that I realized I needed to change dates before I had paid for the races.  I still have somthing to do every month, but it’s definitely a change from the original.  My new race list still includes the Watermelon Series over the summer and the Aching Quad for my birthday, but I have cut down the October race from the Living Dead Challenge to just the Frakenfooter half marathon on October 27.  November will be changes from the Lake to Lake 10k to a mud race.  I finally found one that is nearby and not a ridiculous amount of money (in my opinion, anyways).  For December I cut out the second half marathon and am just planning for the one in Orlando the first weekend of the month.  It’s a slightly easier schedule and it allows for a little more free time to play aournd with other workout plans.

I am still planning on adding some random gym time in the summer due to a free membership as a perk of being a School Board employee.  The only priority of this will be the Wednesday Nutrition and Fitness classes.  I do have plans to visit the gym, but this summer will be focused on improving my 5k time and working through a few DVD programs.  As previously mentioned, May is dedicated to 30 Day Shred.  So far, I am definitely feeling it, but actual results remain to be seen.  In June I am upping the stakes with two DVD programs: Six Week Six Pack and Ripped in 30.  I will be working on Level One of Six Week Six Pack for the enire month of June, then moving up to Level Two during July.  Once July hits, I will finish up Ripped in 30 and dedicate more time to my free gym pass and yoga.  August will consist of a lot of Bob Harper as I alternete his Pure Strength workout with his Kettlebell workout to add in some strength that does not involve the gym.  August will also mark the point at which I add in more yoga to my routine, adding Monday and Friday evenings to my yofa class load.  By October I will be in full running mode, planning for the half marathon at the end of the month.  At this point, I am going to evealuate my fitness level.  If I decide I am well enough, both physically and mentally, I am planning to attempt Insanity for the third time.  If I start at the end of October, I will be able to complete the entire program by December 31, 2013… which is a great way to start off the new year. 

As always, this is subject to change according to ability and functionality… but I am hoping this plan sticks. 

 

Later Days,

-Jenni.



Two days into 30 Day Shred and my legs are feeling it, for sure.  I was impressed that I had the ability to run as much as I did last night.  The boyfriend is actually finding ways to encourage me without making me feel so bad about being slow as snails.  I finished a 5k course in around 40 minutes, which is widely attributed to the fact that I cannot run fast and I need to invest in new running shoes.  These are over a year old and definitely out of commission.

Tonight will consist of some simple soccer drills and a flow yoga class that I am more than looking forward to this week.  I didn’t make it to the class last week, so I’m definitely feeling a little less than zen.  Surprisingly, I have been in a better mood this week.  I’m sure that can be contributed to the exercise that I have shoved back into my daily routine, but it’s always nice to feel better about where my life is headed. 

My second test for teaching certification is this Friday, and I am anxious and excited.  I am trying to stay confident about doing well on the test, but I really haven’t study as much as I could have in the past couple of weeks.  Hopefully all will go well.  I have been getting a good amount of “hands-on” teaching experience, so hopefully that will be reflected in my test scores.

The rest of this week consists of a lot of 30 Day Shred and a lot of running (Thursday, Friday, and Saturday).  Friday I might go for more walking than running, but it’s all in how I feel when the time comes. 

Later Days,

-Jenni.

 



{April 16, 2013}   04.16.2013 – Slight Hiatus

There are a few reasons why I am going to have just a small amount of updates for the upcoming weeks.

1. FCAT.  There is no explanation needed for this one… stress stress stress.

2. I am no longer counting calories, at least until I see my nutritionist.  Futhermore, I may stop counting them all together.  It has become too much of an obsession for me, and it is leaning on the realm of unhealthy habits.  Instead of being so enveloped in how many calories I consume, I am focusing on how I feel when I eat.  I will make further decisions once I am able to speak with a professional about an eating plan.

3. Along with not counting calories, I am slowing down my exercising.  I am paying more attention to what my body wants to do rather than what I am pushing it to do.  This is another factor I plan to speak to my nutritionist about becasuse it is another factor that has been coming in as slightly unhealthy lately.  I am not sure how far is too far when it comes to pushing myself, and the reprecussions of last weekend have made me take a step back and look at what I am doing to myself.

I have a lot that I am dealing with on a personal level when it comes to my relationship with food and exercise.  As much as I still want ot have a goal weight and a goal for my pant’s size, I also need to take a look at if I am doing it in a healthy manner.  As much as I would love to be a size 6, it’s not worth killing myself to get there if I can be happy at a size 10. 

I still have a workout plan in place, but I am trying to allow it to be subject to change whenever my body tells me that I need a day off or that I would prefer cardio at the gym over a workout DVD.  Hopefully, everything will figure itself out. 

Later Days,

-Jenni.



{April 13, 2013}   04.13.2013 – Insomnia

Insomnia is such a fail…but it leads to late night blogging.  That’s when all the best blogging occurs, right?

I should be sleeping since I have a doctor’s appointment in the morning, but I’m never much of a sleeper when my mind has a lot to think about. And the past two days have left me with a lot to think about.  I have also revised my workout plan twice since yesterday, which is always fun and probably a bit psychotic.  Basically, I’m keeping Insanity in the mix, but I’m alternating it with Jillian Michaels, Bob Harper, and trips to the gym.  I also am going to focus on some yoga practice, if only on the weekends.  I am not at a point in my life where I feel like doing yoga every day, but it definitely is something that I know keeps my muscles healthy and it doesn’t hurt that I love showing off my hella awesome flexibility.

If I like hot yoga, I’ll probably keep it to twice a month for money purposes until I get a better job that allows for a few more frivolous spending choices.  I am hoping that the two yoga classes I am looking to attend will connect me with some fitness types in my area that will in turn open doors to newer fitness options.   I am still self-conscious, and I can’t see myself meeting up with people in hopes of keeping up to their fitness level, but it is something I see in my future.  Hopefully this future will come sooner than later.  I am going to need a lot of distractions from boredom this summer.

I’ve gotten distracted and this post has become pointless.

Later Days,

-Jenni.



Today at 3:40 in the afternoon I ate a quick PB wrap and checked my mail.

By 4:00, I was getting ready to start Insanity with a major chip on my shoulder.  The chip on my shoulder was something that someone from my past life had posted about her weight loss success.  What most people don’t connect is the fact that she has most likely reached that success in very unhealthy ways (i.e. It’s easy to lose weight when you’re spending your grocery money on drugs).

At 5:00, I collapsed in my kitchen for reasons that I am not fully aware of.  The most likely reasons include the combination of all the stress I’ve been feeling lately mixed with my decrease in calories by at least 1000 per day…and the fact that I let someone else’s life get to me.  And in reality, I am always letting someone else’s life get to me.  There is always going to be someone who has it better, someone skinnier or richer.  There is nothing I can do to change that, because even my best self is going to have an enemy.

So, I have decided to rethink my goals.  Not my major goals.  I would still like to lose weight and I would still like to get as fit as I possibly can.  But I am rethinking how I am going about doing this.  I still want to do Insanity, but it might be better to cut it down to three or so days a week.  I am not completely 100% on this change, but it’s probably going to happen whether I want to or not.

I will basically be switching to my summer workout plan before summer actually gets here.  Which is Insanity, gym, and running.  I would be throwing Hills back into the mix, which might actually help me because it would get me doing something socially again.  That was something I used to look forward to, and I let it drop away so quickly again.  It’s always the first thing I bump off my list, but then I realize that it is one of the things that I need.  In adding Hills back into the mix, I will probably need to invest in some running shoe, but I will cross that bridge when I come to it.  Insanity will be done Monday, Wednesday, and Friday.  Thursdays will be reserved for running.  The other days will be gym or some other form of fitness.  I am still planning on checking out the Karma Yoga class on Sunday, and I am hoping that will fall into my routine.  I will cross the Hot Yoga bridge when I come to it in May.  I should be straightened out by then, so I don’t see why it isn’t something I could add.  Saturday or Sunday I will probably add a run or walk/hike whenever possible.  If I am feeling able, I’d still like to go on my hike that I have planned for Saturday, but again it’s all in how the next few days plan out.

One of the hardest things for me to hear is that I’m not allowed to do what I want to do.  And since what I want to do seems to be pushing my body too far, I am stuck hearing the hardest thing for me to hear.

I’ll be back with a full update tomorrow.  Hopefully the doctor will have some good news.

Later Days,

-Jenni



I made it through my first week of Insanity without dying…that calls for a celebration.  I did my celebrating last night, and I really shouldn’t have dont that.  It’s amazing how much I can tell that bad food has an effect on my body after over a week of healthy choices.  Needless to say, I will not be partaking in bad food for a long while.  I just feel better when I’m making healthy choices and exercising regularly.  This is something that is hard to drill into my head, but I still need to drill it in there whenever possible.  Bad Food = Bad Feels. 

The first week of Insanity is never the worst, but it feels like it after the first few days.  By Monday, I was actually feeling pretty decent.  I don’t have as much muscle pain after a workout, and virtually none the next morning.  I went to the gym yesterday, which was my day off from the Insanity workouts.  It was nice to get moving without Shaun T yelling at me to try harder.  I enjoyed the break, but I am looking forward to pushing myself.  It really is a love/hate relationship with the program.  I hate it, but I feel so good after.  I feel like I am actually working towards something. 

My goals for the second week is to, of course, not skip any workouts.  I am also going to try to add a short hike on Saturday morning after I do Insanity.  I want to mix in gym time as much as I can in order to keep my committment to actual gym trips alive. 

I am also working on my summer plans, and it is going to involve Insanity mixed with gym time and making my way back to Running Club. 

More on that later.

Later Days,

-Jenni.



{April 9, 2013}   04.09.2013 – Pure Cardio

I am hungry…so I’m going to write a blog update to take my mind off the food I could be eating right now.  And I am being counterproductive by blogging about the food I could be eating.  I am apparently really bad at this… but, such is life.

In non-fitness news, I am up to Chapter Seven in my Professional Education Test Prep book.  That’s halfway!  I will probably be able to take the test the first week of May.  I am looking at May 3rd, but we will see how I am feeling near the end of the month.  I am not entirely sure how studying will work during the FCAT.  I know we cannot help the students, but I don’t know how much we are going to be required to be on our feet.  We shall see how this all plays out next week.  I have training for it this afternoon… so looking forward to that. 

I am looking forward to my first yoga class this weekend and not much else.  I have been super hectic the past couple of weekends and I think I need some time where I just have a day or two for myself without much travel.  I know throwing Insanity and gym trips in the mix won’t give me the 100% calm that most people hope for, but it is my kind of calm.  Insanity has actually be helping me to sleep better and crave better foods.  Even if I am tired when I start the workout, I finish feeling energized and ready for the next thing.  I wish that I had the desire and motivation to wake up and do it in the mornings, but I would be waking up way too early for my liking.  That might be something that I look into if I decide to do a second round during the summer. 

Speaking of summer, I honestly have no idea what I am going to do to take up the free time that I will be faced with.  I know that I have volunteering in mind, but that’s something I will probably only want to do three days a week.  I know I say that I am looking forward to doing nothing and still getting paid, but I also know that I am probably going to be bored within the first few weeks.  I guess that’s where swimming and other sports will come in.  I am hoping to move out on my own this summer, and the place that is on my apartment wish list has a volleyball court.  If that doesn’t work out, I will just be taking a lot of trips to the beach.  Nothing wrong with that!

That’s as much of an update as my brain can handle.  Insanity – Week One Update is coming on Thursday, so be looking for that.  Tomorrow might be nothing or it might be as random as today.

Later Days,

-Jenni.



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