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{May 25, 2013}   05.27.2013 – RAD

Today I completed the Color Me Rad 5k in Tampa, Florida.  Not only does this mark my first 5k of the year; it also marks my first 5k of the summer.  With all these races coming up, it;s time to get serious about my commitment to fitness.  When I say commitment, I don’t mean shoving myself in the living room to do a workout DVD that I dread doing.  I mean committing to do something active every day…something that I love.

Starting next week I will be able to go to yoga at least three times a week.  I skipped last week due to a cookout with some friends, so I will be able to use my last two trips this week on Tuesday and Wednesday.  Then, I am paying for the 30-Day pass on Friday once I get paid.  I think that yoga will give me a new appreciation for my body due to the fact that I am more able than I seem.  I need to get back to running hills, but my therapy appointments have taken my inertia away once I’m done talking about everything I have dealt with in a week.  I need to push myself to run right after my appointment and meet up with them once they start, or just find someplace that will give me energy during the hour of waiting for running club to start.

I just want to get back to the way I was.  I know I write a post complaining about the person I used to be at least once a week these days and the only one to blame for that is myself, I just wish I could find the strength to look past the trials and just say “fuck it” and reach my goals.  Part of me doesn’t even want to do it anymore.  I keep wanting to fast forward to the part of my life where it all makes sense, but I’m starting to doubt if that part ever comes.

Later Days,

-Jenni.

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{May 22, 2013}   05.22.2013 – Nine Days

Nine more days of school!  Yay!!

I am definitely ready to get my two-month break started.  It’s not REALLY a break because I will be volunteering the majority of the summer for a summer Preschool program, but it still will be a break from my actual job and an exploration into what I really want to do with my life.  I am still waiting on my Professional Education Test results, so I am just waiting for that.  I am less and less nervous about it, so I am okay with not knowing my results just yet.  I am hoping that the results come before my PreK test so that I can have a full answer by the time I take that test on whether I can start majorly searching for jobs or not.

In terms of workouts, I am learning to accept my ability to do any form of activity.  Yesterday, I had a run planned, but I ended up doing soccer drills ith Luke for the afternoon because I was on his side of town instead of mine.  I enjoyed myself, and I got in a decent workout.  Today I have soccer planned and my yoga class.  It’s hard to get me to not go to yoga.  I cannot wait until I can spring for the unlimited pass next month.

Hope you all are having a great week!  I’ll update more on food choices later.  It’s a learning process and I am definitely adding more fruits and veggies.  It’s just difficult to go about it without weighing myself every day and counting calories like it’s going out of style.

Later Days,

-Jenni.



{April 16, 2013}   04.16.2013 – Slight Hiatus

There are a few reasons why I am going to have just a small amount of updates for the upcoming weeks.

1. FCAT.  There is no explanation needed for this one… stress stress stress.

2. I am no longer counting calories, at least until I see my nutritionist.  Futhermore, I may stop counting them all together.  It has become too much of an obsession for me, and it is leaning on the realm of unhealthy habits.  Instead of being so enveloped in how many calories I consume, I am focusing on how I feel when I eat.  I will make further decisions once I am able to speak with a professional about an eating plan.

3. Along with not counting calories, I am slowing down my exercising.  I am paying more attention to what my body wants to do rather than what I am pushing it to do.  This is another factor I plan to speak to my nutritionist about becasuse it is another factor that has been coming in as slightly unhealthy lately.  I am not sure how far is too far when it comes to pushing myself, and the reprecussions of last weekend have made me take a step back and look at what I am doing to myself.

I have a lot that I am dealing with on a personal level when it comes to my relationship with food and exercise.  As much as I still want ot have a goal weight and a goal for my pant’s size, I also need to take a look at if I am doing it in a healthy manner.  As much as I would love to be a size 6, it’s not worth killing myself to get there if I can be happy at a size 10. 

I still have a workout plan in place, but I am trying to allow it to be subject to change whenever my body tells me that I need a day off or that I would prefer cardio at the gym over a workout DVD.  Hopefully, everything will figure itself out. 

Later Days,

-Jenni.



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