Run Jenni, Run











Today at 3:40 in the afternoon I ate a quick PB wrap and checked my mail.

By 4:00, I was getting ready to start Insanity with a major chip on my shoulder.  The chip on my shoulder was something that someone from my past life had posted about her weight loss success.  What most people don’t connect is the fact that she has most likely reached that success in very unhealthy ways (i.e. It’s easy to lose weight when you’re spending your grocery money on drugs).

At 5:00, I collapsed in my kitchen for reasons that I am not fully aware of.  The most likely reasons include the combination of all the stress I’ve been feeling lately mixed with my decrease in calories by at least 1000 per day…and the fact that I let someone else’s life get to me.  And in reality, I am always letting someone else’s life get to me.  There is always going to be someone who has it better, someone skinnier or richer.  There is nothing I can do to change that, because even my best self is going to have an enemy.

So, I have decided to rethink my goals.  Not my major goals.  I would still like to lose weight and I would still like to get as fit as I possibly can.  But I am rethinking how I am going about doing this.  I still want to do Insanity, but it might be better to cut it down to three or so days a week.  I am not completely 100% on this change, but it’s probably going to happen whether I want to or not.

I will basically be switching to my summer workout plan before summer actually gets here.  Which is Insanity, gym, and running.  I would be throwing Hills back into the mix, which might actually help me because it would get me doing something socially again.  That was something I used to look forward to, and I let it drop away so quickly again.  It’s always the first thing I bump off my list, but then I realize that it is one of the things that I need.  In adding Hills back into the mix, I will probably need to invest in some running shoe, but I will cross that bridge when I come to it.  Insanity will be done Monday, Wednesday, and Friday.  Thursdays will be reserved for running.  The other days will be gym or some other form of fitness.  I am still planning on checking out the Karma Yoga class on Sunday, and I am hoping that will fall into my routine.  I will cross the Hot Yoga bridge when I come to it in May.  I should be straightened out by then, so I don’t see why it isn’t something I could add.  Saturday or Sunday I will probably add a run or walk/hike whenever possible.  If I am feeling able, I’d still like to go on my hike that I have planned for Saturday, but again it’s all in how the next few days plan out.

One of the hardest things for me to hear is that I’m not allowed to do what I want to do.  And since what I want to do seems to be pushing my body too far, I am stuck hearing the hardest thing for me to hear.

I’ll be back with a full update tomorrow.  Hopefully the doctor will have some good news.

Later Days,

-Jenni

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I made it through my first week of Insanity without dying…that calls for a celebration.  I did my celebrating last night, and I really shouldn’t have dont that.  It’s amazing how much I can tell that bad food has an effect on my body after over a week of healthy choices.  Needless to say, I will not be partaking in bad food for a long while.  I just feel better when I’m making healthy choices and exercising regularly.  This is something that is hard to drill into my head, but I still need to drill it in there whenever possible.  Bad Food = Bad Feels. 

The first week of Insanity is never the worst, but it feels like it after the first few days.  By Monday, I was actually feeling pretty decent.  I don’t have as much muscle pain after a workout, and virtually none the next morning.  I went to the gym yesterday, which was my day off from the Insanity workouts.  It was nice to get moving without Shaun T yelling at me to try harder.  I enjoyed the break, but I am looking forward to pushing myself.  It really is a love/hate relationship with the program.  I hate it, but I feel so good after.  I feel like I am actually working towards something. 

My goals for the second week is to, of course, not skip any workouts.  I am also going to try to add a short hike on Saturday morning after I do Insanity.  I want to mix in gym time as much as I can in order to keep my committment to actual gym trips alive. 

I am also working on my summer plans, and it is going to involve Insanity mixed with gym time and making my way back to Running Club. 

More on that later.

Later Days,

-Jenni.



{April 9, 2013}   04.09.2013 – Pure Cardio

I am hungry…so I’m going to write a blog update to take my mind off the food I could be eating right now.  And I am being counterproductive by blogging about the food I could be eating.  I am apparently really bad at this… but, such is life.

In non-fitness news, I am up to Chapter Seven in my Professional Education Test Prep book.  That’s halfway!  I will probably be able to take the test the first week of May.  I am looking at May 3rd, but we will see how I am feeling near the end of the month.  I am not entirely sure how studying will work during the FCAT.  I know we cannot help the students, but I don’t know how much we are going to be required to be on our feet.  We shall see how this all plays out next week.  I have training for it this afternoon… so looking forward to that. 

I am looking forward to my first yoga class this weekend and not much else.  I have been super hectic the past couple of weekends and I think I need some time where I just have a day or two for myself without much travel.  I know throwing Insanity and gym trips in the mix won’t give me the 100% calm that most people hope for, but it is my kind of calm.  Insanity has actually be helping me to sleep better and crave better foods.  Even if I am tired when I start the workout, I finish feeling energized and ready for the next thing.  I wish that I had the desire and motivation to wake up and do it in the mornings, but I would be waking up way too early for my liking.  That might be something that I look into if I decide to do a second round during the summer. 

Speaking of summer, I honestly have no idea what I am going to do to take up the free time that I will be faced with.  I know that I have volunteering in mind, but that’s something I will probably only want to do three days a week.  I know I say that I am looking forward to doing nothing and still getting paid, but I also know that I am probably going to be bored within the first few weeks.  I guess that’s where swimming and other sports will come in.  I am hoping to move out on my own this summer, and the place that is on my apartment wish list has a volleyball court.  If that doesn’t work out, I will just be taking a lot of trips to the beach.  Nothing wrong with that!

That’s as much of an update as my brain can handle.  Insanity – Week One Update is coming on Thursday, so be looking for that.  Tomorrow might be nothing or it might be as random as today.

Later Days,

-Jenni.



I feel the need to push myself, so I am adding on to the Insanity workout.  Nothing too much, just a couple of gym trips and weekend yoga.  I have been toying with the idea of trying out Hot Yoga, and I think that trying it out during Insanity might be the right way to go.  I would love to add a workout that refreshes my muscles.  While I have heard mixed reviews on the topic, a lot of people say that hot yoga leaves you felling refreshed and ready to take on anything.  I will be starting those classes every other week, starting in May.  It will be primarily during my second month of Insanity, with the first trip falling in my recovery week.  Along with Hot Yoga, I will also be adding a basic yoga class on the alternating Sundays that I am not attending Hot Yoga on Saturday.  These visits all fall on recovery days, so I am not worried about being overworked.  As I believe I have previously mentioned, I am planning on continuing to go to the gym on Wednesdays, which is my actual rest day.  It will mostly be for biking, but I am throwing a few treadmill or elliptical workouts in to keep my legs moving.  I might go a few times during the weekend also, depending on how I am feeling with Insanity that week.  I mostly am just trying to get as much change in my body as I safely can in the next 60 days.  I am also very excited that my final day of Insanity falls on the last day of school.  It’s a pretty good way to wrap things up and be ready for summer. 

My goals for this week include continuing with Insanity and working towards a completely Vegetarian lifestyle.  As of today, I have finished my Healthy Choice meals.  I do have the turkey burgers, but those aren’t completely appetizing, so I don’t think I would have finished them even if I had stayed Omnivorous.  Much like my last round of vegetarianism, I will continue to include eggs in my diet and sparse amounts of dairy.  I am unsure as to whether or not I want to cut out fish entirely because I do enjoy sushi on special occasions.  Insanity will not be too difficult this week, no more than it was last week.  I will, however, be experiencing what it is like to do Insanity in someone else’s house as I am bringing it over to the boyfriend’s house tomorrow.  He will get to experience the Plyometric Cardio Circuit from Hell and I will get a higher ceiling to work with….everybody wins.

FCAT starts next week…pray for me.

Later Days,

-Jenni.



The official weigh-in result for this morning was 204 pounds, for a total of ten pounds lost this week.

Tot celebrate, I’m having watermelon for breakfast.  That’s not really a celebration, but it is soothing because my mouth is super dry from being out last night and partying like the true metalhead I am and forgetting to stay hydrated while doing so.  But it will work in my favor because if I learn how to growl, the boyfriend will learn Mumford and Sons.

The only major fail about dehydration is I crave all the bad things.  It also might be because I watched members of a band devour food at a rate that is normally unknown to man…that also might be a reason, yeah.  But I am craving some carby-doughy goodness.  Hopefully it will go away by lunch.  I could throw together another wrap, which might help my cause a bit.

Today will be an interesting adventure in finding when and where to workout.  Both of my parents are home, I have to go help my mother at work, and when I get home my aunt is supposed to come over.  Also, I hate working out in front of people.  But I’d rather workout in front of the boyfriend than family members…so it looks like I’ll be dragging the party to his house this afternoon.  Hopefully he will have had enough sleep… or he can just sleep while I workout.  Then no one will see me…MUHAHAHHA.

This update is getting weird.  I mostly just wanted to say I lost weight, I’m happy, and I plan to do more next week.

Later Days,

-Jenni.



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